I really don't understand anything...

I could have used a mentor growing up... Another reason why I have hated people, I ask for what I ultimately need and they simply will not provide it... Does it really come down to values, or are they just simple unable to compute what I mean by what I say... Well... If I understood how these drones operated... Its a repetitive pattern isn't it? Its like I am trying to row without a paddle... Masters create value, and slaves simply follow that in their environment... It is that simple... If a master is unable to create value, then the role is not being played right... This only causes destruction all around... This world is but one system, and a flawed one at that... My existence is flawed as well I suppose... If I cannot understand myself, then I certainly cannot get understood... I have no means of conjuring up the help I need... It really does come down to a roll of a die...